There are so many things in life that i wish i could change.

One of them my weight. I've been struggling with my weight for almost a year now. I lost some weight just last week but it's like it's not enough.

In order to go on with the journey of losing weight i gave up sweets and softdrinks. I decided to eat healthy.

I only spoil myself about once a week and that's after i've had salas or fish for dinner. But i guess tonight that just doesn't cut it.

I feel so bad about myself more than ever. I don't feel like eating anymore. I know it's bad, but i feel as if the things i'm doing aren't enough. I'm still fat in some people's eyes.

I really hope i can get my confidence back.

I haven't updated in a while now huh?

Well I've been busy, probably the busiest summer I've had so far. I'm not really a big fan of working in newspapers ever since I really thought about working for PR.

I guess the thing is, it's hard to work when you know you're not appreciated. Some people think that the whole reverse psychology thing works but truth is it doesn't. Some ass thought probably thought about it and just gave a word for it so people wouldn't feel so bad when they were told they suck.

It makes you think twice about yourself. About who you really are and if you're actually up for the job.

I'm not ready for the world after college. I don't think no one ever is. I just hope that knowing that you're not great at something wouldn't hurt so much.

My Funny Valentine

I know it's kind of cheesy that i'm posting this on valentine's day but whatever.

I have been dating this boy (or man as he likes much better. Haha) for 7 months now but he's only been my boyfriend for 2 months.

I know that my boyfriend loves me so so much. And I appreciate every single thing he does for me.

He's that type of person that would probably even go to the ends of the earth just to make me happy. He's that type of guy that well... even when we fight he'll still go to Quiapo to buy the film i need for my photojrn class even though we were cold to each other.

He's that guy that will wait for me for 2 or even 4 hours after his dismissal just for us to be able to have lunch together or just so he could take me home.

He even went to Binondo all the way from Taytay just so I wouldn't be "tampo" at him.

He's that guy that listens to what I actually tell him and he acts like he's still courting me even though we've been together for months.

I love his crazy antics and his looney yet corny jokes. I love how we looks at me with those deep brown eyes of his. It reminds me that I'm special in his eyes.

I love how he seems to always take my breath away with every word he says. And yes I know he's good looking, I've had my eyes on him ever since he introduced himself in one of our meetings, I thought he was cute but slightly sabaw.

He makes me feel special, every single day. He loves me no matter how embarrassing I am and I love him no matter how embarrassing he is. We may not be perfect individually but I guess that's what makes us perfect for each other.

I love you baby. I hope you know how much I appreciate you and that I actually listen to your stories no matter how many times I've heard them. LOL. One day I'll learn how to cook and I'll cook for you(pag hindi sunog.) Always remember that I'll be your sunshine in a not so shiny day. I love you:*

Mushy mushy

I rarely do these kinds of posts, but anyway, I feel so so fortunate and blessed to have the best boyfriend ever.

He takes care of me whenever he can. He makes sure that I feel loved every day of the week. He knows me as well as my best friend Lulu does. He's sort of like my best friend too. Haha

He says sorry for the things that he shouldn't even be sorry about. He is just as insane as I am and i love that part because I have been waiting for so long for someone who'll accept how insane I am and who'll be just as insane as me. And thank God I found him.

I know it's totally cheesy and mushy. But i just really want him to know how absolutely special he is to me.

He keeps me sane in my most craziest days. Whenever I'm upset he always checks on me to be sure that i'm doing alright. I love him no matter what, I love him because he is such a wonderful person. I love him to bits. Thank you baby. Thank you and I love you:)