3am

You know something's really bad when you start crying uncontrollably all because you can't stop yourself from thoughts of getting hurt.

Most often the mind is a dangerous thing to be left alone with. I haven't felt this way in years. Words can't explain what I understand and what i wish to understand.

I've been waking up at 3am without any alarm clock and i find myself trying to force myself to go back to sleep in the next hour or so.

Maybe i'm just afraid. Fear devours me when i'm not sure what to say, when i'm just simply too damn afraid to feel experience hurt all over again.

I'll try to go to sleep. I still have class in the morning.